Honestly, I would like to apologize. I don’t really understand how you see things. It would be unfair to predict your personal interpretation. Truly, I have felt ashamed. I know this has been part of the design, yet the ways I have been led to react at times I am embarrassed by. I have had little choice, it feels, but to rely on the information provided to me. Where God and the angels have remained silent, I have put the pieces together as best I can.
I feel overwhelmed at times, when I consider the path I have walked. The impressions of the events have often clashed with my education and upbringing. The details have painted pictures of unsavory situations and caused stress when protecting the people in my life. I would like to apologize when I have got it wrong. Influences have brought about ill feeling towards certain people in my life. I have felt the way problems were presented to me could shake my views of life and also twist my understanding of the motives of those around me.
I am ashamed that I wasn’t able to see more or understand sooner. A superior mind seemed to enjoy creating certain scenarios and then changing the view again. We seek first the Kingdom of God, and we have faith that in seeking it we will find it. The path is narrow that leads to life, some say. Yet I am overwhelmed by just how crafty the scenarios have been and how extreme the information technology employed to restrict and influence my choices and actions. The many chapters of this process have worn me down. I am ashamed for this too.
I apologize that my faith in God, and in the miracles of a coming change, were not more aesthetic and smoother upon the path. I assumed the story might be kinder and that the angels might ensure it so. I knocked, as loud as I could, and I assumed it was opened for me. Yet the grief that I felt sometimes came out in my expressions. I let the fears, aimed at those I love, grip my prayers and drag my thoughts into confusion. Let us keep seeking the kingdom, may we find each other there soon.
The path is filled with deceptions and traps. The efforts I have made to tune in the higher view to our situation and demonstrate the details of abuse orchestrated against us, has triggered a reaction. Now efforts are made to pollute my character. Now the loved things in life, are targeted to stain and discard from our heart. The scene they hoped to loop while ensuring everything is tainted in misery.
The causes for the situation are obscured, and as the details would fade the surface events would rot into confusion. The tuning in to the situation from higher levels has threatened those who have engineered these ideas. Their manipulations and toxic projections increased as they were exposed. Their reaction was to re-write the context, steal the doorways to our inheritance, and mirror their efforts in a sacrifice away from the apex.
These are in the hope of isolating us. These are engineered to ensure none can look upon the mess of our situation. These efforts are designed to make sure none will support us. These are to ensure we are abandoned in a loop.
The future demands the square and leads them away from us.
The triangle is declared by the past.
The two go back around to meet the square.
The square enjoys an abundance of support.
Three may be overlooked as in the past.
Disgusting they called ‘the trinity’ in my home.
Someone that was to be ignored or cast out.
The first born is killed, and we should read it about it daily, they said.
If the future sees these events, I hope you are free to laugh. I hope your children don’t endure as we have. The life has been so abusive. The conspiracies and threats have been unreasonable. I wish you peace if you find these events. I hope you are more liberated than we have been. I pray you are free and healthy.
May you not get bound or locked down like we often have been. I hope the poison in my family can’t reach you. May you know I smile for you and I forgive if you can’t help me. I wish you might, sure. But I understand if the energy is heavy here. Family, if I can call them that, have surrounded me in rings of pain and deception. The nation and the world is arranged to chain our spirits and weigh down our trajectory. I hope for freedom and liberty for all of us. The history of our world, the ways of animals, the secret abuses, some have used to engineer an energetic density to keep us difficult to reach.
The situation has grown toxic, and the best situation would be for me to have some way to build my own space away from these people. I apologize and I’m ashamed to say it. I don’t know if people would understand. I hope some support might find me as I have become very uncomfortable with the situation. I have grown to resent the way things have been arranged, and I hope for some opportunity to embark on a chapter I can call my own and start truly the kind of work that the world could use beyond these toxic scenarios.
Tristan of Alberton 