With faith and hard work, the balance of karma, or the grace of God’s mercy, appear to work to realign events towards peace and joy. Along the path, many notions of potential are explained. I worked hard and patiently, relying on things I could learn to walk a path that might find success.
At the age of 42, I seemed nudged to consider the Freemasons. I had read some interesting ideas within Dan Brown’s books, such as ‘The Lost Symbol’. As family had mostly grown distant with time and old friends had moved on since I had returned from an extended time overseas, I hoped the fraternity and their goal of making good men better could be a good fit. I submitted an application form and met two nice Masons to consider the process of joining.
I was compelled to travel overseas again, suddenly. My intuition nudged me to attend to family, so I went. What occurred on that trip is perhaps a situation for another day. By words and symbols, a manipulation was crafted to build a case from a future cycle where threats seemed laced through my story. I thought it may have been out of jest, I thought it may even have been for learning, I couldn’t walk past the suggested themes lightly.
It became clear that my whole life had been so strange, because I had always been walking against the grain of this reaction to an initiation that hadn’t been able to occur. By the Jehovah’s Witness upbringing, the scenario was primed as a way to place upon me the entire problems of the world. And some seemed determine to make the most of what they saw as a blank cheque, it appeared. The whole scene was sculptured to make a sacrifice out of the situation. It was by a strange alchemy that it had been calculated to work, and I was able to recognize it was based on a counter play to turn the situation into a universe shifting blessing.
This way of seeing arranged in my mind an opportunity. Might there be a curious gift in these events? Now I agree that some chapters of my life are genuinely unhealthy. Yet, we had before us a scene where initiation and non-initiation had produced a kind of double-slit experiment in higher dimensional space that we could actually look upon. A Schrodinger’s cat experiment, filled with all the living details of our time, including the crimes, mysteries and accidents that had occurred. The whole world, arching back to itself from infra vibrations to dance with the ultraviolet. The morning framed as evening, the dinosaurs reborn, the threat of returning to our own birth matched only by the threat of these cycles being used in recycling other ways of living.
Somewhere between two paths, there was another design of a spiral where the space of a different choice remained viable. My family had a history with both paths. Yet, I couldn’t see how much events of my journey had been inflicted by this ancestral wound. As a patsy and a fool, I had been groomed, and so my heredity sat in line with it as a finely engineered effect. Yet, somehow, we may have inherited perhaps just enough room within the gap to solve some problems and mysteries for ourselves and times of superintelligence to come.
I propose the careful and respectful study of this paradox. Where the influences of many systems may fit together in a kind of jigsaw puzzle, the picture formed within the margins of this variance may produce a kind of key that can solve mysteries and even shed light on turbulent factors that continue to hold our generation and societies back. There seemed to be a suggestion that some effort was made to burn away the evidence. However, it sounded like this was regretted by those who tried.
These events have provided for us a possible way to elevate our path in a new direction and communicate with a different king of user interface. Beyond the orbit of a rigid plan, the margins of potential timing and choice can become a sort of window. A space where we can invest our creative power wisely and pray divine spirit uplift our shared dreams for tomorrow.
Tristan James Johns 